Slowly

Only because my PTSD won’t allow me to do so fully yet. I am days away from the next event. I am both terrified and thrilled. If you told me in June of 2022 that I would be sitting here in this moment I would call you a liar. I could not see past the immediate crisis forced upon me. While healing from that time is still ongoing the lessons from that time ring loud and true.

I am walking through this moment as if Monday is inevitable. In a sense it is, Mondays always arrive 7 days after the last one. In other ways not so much but this Monday will be special. Why? Not sharing that one yet.

I will but not today. Today I celebrate what I’ve gotten done so far in 2026. I celebrate my audacity. It took that to shoot this particular shot but after multiple attempts I hit nothing but net.

There is still more to get done this year and it is half over but beginning Monday how I accomplish those things might just get a little easier.

I will make a confession. I am spending an absurd amount of time using AI to visualize what comes next. There is a town somewhere with undrinkable water because I need to see what 2 pit bull puppies look like on a king sized bed. In my defense, the corporations making the AI could use other coolants but water is cheapest and fuck those humans right?

I will be making a difference in the lives of others in ways I haven’t been able to for a moment. I am thankful for that. I will be doing something I’ve wanted to do since I arrived in California. I am not taking this for granted. I worked hard to get here. I will work even harder to stay.

One random shot before I leave this post though:

another background check cleared – you can go ahead and burn that PDF now