You know you have a running theme when iOS creates your own shortcuts for anticipated text. I was moving too fast in the title and it suggested I use hetero vs hero. I mean, I guess.

In another random thought before I get to the meat of this post, I am sitting across the street from a gas station as I type and in the last 16 minutes or so I’ve watched the price fore regular go from $2.99 to $3.00 to $3.04.

Even if I don’t always give you the origin story, everything that I write here is inspired by something. Today that something is a question of leadership. A question of where it starts and stops and if we should have a standard. Mind you, I already understand that no standard can be set, and that no one can really hold anyone accountable to that standard. It feels like a rhetorical question until you examine the landscape from the position of someone who walked off the streets and found your kink site, group, phone chat.

Of course a part of this is my ‘save a ho’ mentality, recent history has shown me why that can be a problem, but I am pretty fucking sure there is a balance which can be struck, I just need to work at it. I am willing to work.

One of the tangents from my work spurt last night is the sense of responsibility. Yes I can go to publishing so to speak with what I have as a raw idea but I feel a greater responsibility to those who are willing to invest their time, I responsibility to myself to deliver what I know is reflective of what I CAN do.

I am often presented with examples of things I don’t want to do or be. This afternoon was one of those moments. Mind you based on the person who titled the scales which generated this post the response was ‘normal’ and that just reminded me that I can’t be normal.

It’s not that I won’t fuck up. I will have moments where I don’t read the room right. I will allow more of me into a topic than might be needed. I will absolutely make mistakes and mis-speak. What I can’t allow of myself is the ‘normal’. I can’t just be a person who ONLY looks out for my benefit. If this is the path then with that comes a responsibility

I can be a part of the problem or a part of the solution. The solution is not a 1 size fits all garment, and won’t be the choice of some. And that’s okay. What’s not okay is the price for a gallon is now $3.06. I’m gonna need a pay for my gas submissive.

Aphrodite Brown