My name is Nicole, and I’ve never met a Black man I could not save twice….even when they don’t want to be saved.

I’m working on that because I need my energy elsewhere.

I am winning the battle though because as I type this the year long entanglement with Iron Man is coming to an end. Sigh.

He was quite the pleasant surprise. Of all the things I was expecting it wasn’t him, and he was fun on multiple levels. I mean he got the name Iron Man for a very good reason, but he could also hold a conversation. We could geek out on the things I like to geek about. He was more mature than I thought he would be and fed my ego. When I am attempting to date I explain that if you want me, then WANT me. I am fueled by desire and mine doesn’t expand for you if I don’t see it returned. It’s how I was able to engage the random man from Philly and generate quotes like this:

Ok so there was supposed to a screen shot here, but after looking for it I realized that it was done on Twitter and I didn’t want to search for the thumb drove that has the Twitter conversations. Yes I know folx think that deleting old accounts erased shit, but the fucking Internet is forever.

Anyway, Iron Man understood that about me…and he also really liked fucking me. Well I am sure he still does I just think I am kinda done. I might perhaps look back at this wistfully, but I’m more likely to give him a segment in a chapter and keep it moving.

He’s not upgrade material, and after the incident after his birthday and my ability to resist putting on my cape, I just am not as captivated. I did resist that cape though and we call that growth. I am mildly disappointed that we won’t make music. Actual music not just him making me lose my voice. I am proud he took my advice and is doing more producing now. Leave them better than you found them etc etc etc

What will I do for dick you ask? I got it covered. I don’t type everything here, especially with the additional eyes. That could be a part of it also, having quality on tap.

There was around a week months ago I asked myself if I would ever upgrade him, and that was a no. I had to think if it was me being gun shy, and while that could still be possible, that was not my reasoning.

I’m just talking the talk on TikTok, I’m Walking the Walk RIP TakeOff.

I’m headed to bed early, client in the AM before the 9-5. I also have to meet with the lawyer.

10 days to #51