Your girl has fortune smile upon her sometimes. You know I will take it.

This summer it appears that I am given the gift of people who love me. Mind you I am surrounded by love everyday, in this case I am talking about physical love in the form of  old lovers.

Yes I worry at times about living too much into the past.  Looking backwards makes it difficult to see forward.

As I am figuring out how to move forward, I am being sent reminders it feels of what I should expect from who is up next.

August 4 feels like he was placed in my presence to remind me of that surrender feeling again. I feel it so infrequently yes I need reminders of what it is.

In the next two weeks I should be able to spend a day or more with Newark.

If there is any one person besides The Man who I could see spending my life with its him.  Not unlike The Man its not in the cards for us, but his presence could be a reminder of it’s okay to just be me.

There are few people I can just be with and not be judged.

He is one.

I need that reminder which tells me I am ok.

It also helps that the sex is exceptional.

One TBT I was not expecting is that a one night only engagement might just be coming around again.  I’m good with that and him.  As someone once said…unfinished business.

WR is coming, I might just be back at my fighting weight if my past keeps appearing to whip me into shape.

I am okay with this too.

 

Aphrodite Brown