To Sir With ?Love
i always thought that there would be more time until there wasn’t
I’m doing my best not to reach out today because I just don’t see the point any longer
I do know that I miss your counsel, and that with what comes next for me your presence could make a difference
but then I have to remind myself that if you were present how different things would be and this particular scenario would not be happening
to the man who once told me he didn’t expect to live past 35 – you did it
yes I still love you but no I’m not trying to do this again
2018 is the year of me admitting that I don’t have it within me and for once I’m gonna ignore “is that what you think”
at some point i will tell the tale of how I gave up. It’s what I do here. I know that day is not today.
Tomorrow doesn’t look really good either.
failure is not the worst thing that can happen to me. Continuing to fight this useless fight might just kill me.
it was days ago well perhaps weeks is a better word at the moment when I sat here and thought this really is the day that I die.