Our time this morning is fun and our time this afternoon will also be fun. I am at the point where I have to let go of a few things and while it is a challenge I am okay with it. I put a lot of work in and letting it go might feel like failure if this pivot was not in process.

I didn’t think that I would be ok with it but when I think about the things on my mind in this moment letting that go is not one of them.

Our reality changes our dreams change our goals change. What hopefully does not change is knowing you have love and support from real folx. Someone once told me they did not dream and I offered to dream for them. When I think about things now, I pity them. Not enough to change anything but yes I pity them.

What I got this morning cannot be duplicated and doesn’t exist in a lot of spaces. For most people I wish what I have for them or their version of it .

There are still lots of things up in the air and while I don’t know where all of those things will land, I have stand. I can’t just trust the universe when things are superior I also have to have that trust when thing are mediocre or even bad. Today I am working on beating myself up less and letting that thing go is a part of that process. I am approaching a critical part of the manuscript and having issues editing it. I have to alter the nature of a relationship while doubling down on a different relationship and its tricky. I will get through it like I always do but it is tricky.

I am waiting for a response from an agency now and the wait is tying me in knots. I want to just bully them into a yes but I cannot. I have to prep for an epic day at the gig tomorrow and last but not least I have to shoe shop. Welcome back to my world