It feels good to be back home, even better to be almost ME again, I love all that the past 2 months have given me, Every moment was spectacular and memorable and valuable. I haven’t gotten to spend time like that since I got there in 2022 if I am being honest. It was needed and frankly I need MORE of it but as always things – life – be lifing and I need to address some things.

I have 6 Amazon boxes sitting here unopened because I haven’t spent the time here to unwrap and to put the things in the places. I will get to some of it today. I mostly though have to get to this laundry. It’s been over a month. That is a good problem to have though, not having to worry about doing laundry for over a month.

I also have to cut my hair today for the event tomorrow. I kinda want to do a mowhawk….but I won’t. At least for tomorrow I won’t, no promises for the future though.

My bed felt good even if it was missing someone. Is it ok to say I miss them? I learned over the past 2 months who actually has my back and that feels amazing. This is actually having my back not just pretending to because they want something from me. I am not insane, I know they want something from me it just so happens that what they want is ME. I don’t have to alter much of myself to have this moment in time. Zero alteration comes with being alone and I am not alone so there are alterations. Adjustments might be a better word but what matters is that I don’t have to diminish or hide or fabricate. I can concern myself with their feelings – like happiness – and not have to concern myself with changing myself to keep fragile egos in check. Gloria n’shit

This is going to be a life changing week. I have an idea on where I will land, but I have to power through tomorrow first.