I had a moment this morning. I realized it not because I thought that I was wrong but because of the paper trail. I guess I could give myself credit for not pulling the trigger. Instead I’ve spent the time since asking myself am the person Bonnie told the world I am back in the days she could still speak.

The answer to that is yes and no but the layers are more complex. They usually are unfortunately.

The question is will I have the conversation about what ALMOST happened? My instinct says I will not yet the disturbance in my spirit will be obvious. We have a lot to get done today and I have to prep for meetings tomorrow so I might just be able to mask it.

I also have to consider what remaining silent means. It could very well cause a domino effect that might be costly. How much am I willing to pay? I don’t have the answer. I need an answer but I do not know if it will arrive today. What will arrive today is heavy lifting. I suppose I should prepare.