I think I am kind of happy I got interrupted. First because the phone call was a necessary one, but also because the energy was off. I think perhaps a part of it was having a time limit, but it just didn’t feel the same.

I took it as a reminder that I am not the same so it might be time to leave some of those old habits behind. That is certainly simpler typing than doing, but after all of the changes of the last few years, I mean what’s one more right?

Nu me and all that jazz.

One of the old habits that is not going away though is what inspires writers block with me.

When I come to the keyboard it is because there are feelings. You’ve seen them, its why you keep reading. When I stopped typing what I thought you wanted to read and started typing my heart, that’s when you arrived.

If only that could have worked in other scenarios.

If it were up to me I would erase October 21 – December 12 off the calendar and then take away December 14-January 1 too. This time of year is just historically bad for me, and without Bonnie & Clyde I struggle, a lot.

One of my tricks to stay above ground is to shut everything down. No it is not the healthiest but until there are other changes with me it is the safest. Safety isn’t just about my never ending supply of condoms. I’m not feeling right now, and that means doing me, here is not all that simple. I’m going to try to power through it though. Stay Tuned.

Aphrodite Brown