I mostly understand why but I am still restless.
I’m pacing and fretting.
I’m choosing specific things to do that aren’t necessarily needed but they fill the minutes which turn to hours which turn to days.
I am restless.
I didn’t sleep last night. When it finally did overtake me I was forced out with vizion of Valerie trying to put a plastic bag over my head.
I didn’t sleep last night.
I refused to masturbate. Not this night too. I decided against a phone call knowing I needed to work this morning.
I am restless.
There is something there….evading me. I still can’t determine if it is on purpose or not. Release is coming, it just may not be in the manner expected. This is not how most people keep it, but for the moment it is effective. Until it isn’t.
Hello my name is Aphrodite and I am a cock sucker.
It was seven years ago today that I started a little blog on blogspot.com.
I didn’t realize then what was ahead of me, I just knew that I needed to write.
I’ve kept a journal of sorts since I was able to hold a pen or crayon. Most of them historically were spiral notebooks or if it was extra special a composition book.
When in November of 2010 it became no monger possible to write as I used to on Fetlife, I began Vizionz.
The alterations in my life over the last years are tremendous. While on paper I’ve lost more than most human beings should be able to withstand, I’ve gained so many things.
I am still here to tell the tale, that is a win unmeasured.
I have no fucking clue what the next 7 years will bring but I do know that chances are I will share them with you, here.
I appreciate you walking this road with me. I am thankful for all those who started and are still here, for those who joined and left and those yet to come.