To Be Continued

at some point i will tell the tale of how I gave up.  It’s what I do here. I know that day is not today.

Tomorrow doesn’t look really good either.

failure is not the worst thing that can happen to me. Continuing to fight this useless fight might just kill me.

it was days ago well perhaps weeks is a better word at the moment when I sat here and thought this really is the day that I die.

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In The Dark

“What happened? Why am I on the floor?”

I’ve been in the ‘dark’ for a moment trying to identify the draw to jjabrams.  There are lots of things it could have been, and I allowed myself to try to fit a few things it is not into the equation.

It took waking up on the floor of a hotel room to figure it all out.

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2018

I’ve written a lot this month.  More than I planned really but that is both a good and a bad thing.  It means that the synapses in my brain are still working. It also means that my brain is too full.

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Protect Yourself

what the fuck does that even mean?

I am likely to swear off Capricorns soon. You motherfuckers are a lot of damn work. Unless of course you are a particular Capricorn, I am not yet convinced that there is a no in my lexicon when it comes to you.  The rest of y’all though?

I was told to stop thinking today. It’s a reminder that jjabrams doesn’t know me well yet. At this pace, he may not know me at all.

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The Prophet

Now I understand.

No you don’t.

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