The prompt for day five is something you hope to do in your life

When I was just a little girl I wanted to grow up and be the first Black woman to sit on the Supreme Court of the United States of America.  Then Sandra O’Connor was appointed and my teacher told me to give up that  dream.  She said there was now a woman there, I could not be the first.  I should find something else to dream about.

In theory I could still be the first Black woman on the Supreme Court.  In theory I could wake up tomorrow six feet tall and with a penis.  Anything can happen in theory, but it is reality that we must manage daily.

I hope to finish my current degree path.

That is kind of a big deal for me.  First off I am 41 with 42 waving excitedly at me from the very near distance.  In theory, I should have wrapped this shit up years ago.  Life happens though and I didn’t but I am here now.  Right now.  Now is what I have to deal with.

The classes are getting more difficult.  The math requirements are sitting there patiently saying we ain’t going no where bitch….you gotta take us sometime.  The finish line for part one is in sight, which means I have to get to thinking about part two.

Yesterday I watched someone I’ve called friend call me all types of things and I had one of those ‘moments’ in the middle of the night.  One of those ‘moments’ when I was just a little girl and I believed everything that people told me, and I fell in line.  Just like I did when that teacher told me to give up my dream of sitting on the Supreme Court.

Law school is NOT in my future, but Graduate school is.  In theory…. yes I could still sit on the Supreme Court.  There is no Constitutional requirement that one be a lawyer to be on the court. But that is not a path I am walking.  I am walking a different path.

This path is one where I get to help people in a different way.  I am good with that.  Better than good actually. Step one though?  Finish this degree.  On that note back to my homework after spending far too much time yesterday doing things that were unnecessary.

 

Aphrodite Brown