In the months after ____ left AMP / Hafez and left Fetlife he and I found ourselves at odds. Okay, that might be an understatement.
He also found himself in the middle of some deep personal shit that affected him. He lost his father. I found no joy in that, nor will I ever. Yes my personal empathy can extend even to one who might not deserve it based on their behavior.
His other women in his ‘house’ began to depart.
The why behind that is not something that I am privy to, outside of what he himself has shared publicly:
On Mon, 18/10/10, I used to be Dove wrote:
From: I used to be Dove
Subject: Petition for release of service and ownership
To: “Master Pimp Sir Ez” , “me”
Date: Monday, 18 October, 2010, 12:23
Namaste AMP Sir Ez,
This is the formal written petition for release of service and ownership. This one is breaking promise to self to never ask for release given the definition of the collar. Within any definition of a dymanic, the foundation is friendship. We will always be friends and business partners.
Our D.s Poly dynamic has broken. We are growing in two different directions. We are not productive together nor wish to be each other “cheerleaders”. TPE has broken. This one has lost the will to obey and serve unconditionally. You are done. We have broken our contract.
This is a special collar. This is offered to recognize a life-long bond between us. Even if you leave my service, having had this collar means that we recognize a responsibility toward one another for life. This acknowledges that I trust you completely and that you feel the same towards me. If the collar is removed, the responsibilities found in the
contract are null and void, except for one: we pledge that if one needs the other, the other will provide for the need as much as is humanly possible for them. We will amend contract every year on anniversary date for life changes and productivity.
Since a collar was never officially placed around ones neck, release stands the same as the acceptance of collar and ownership. Thru a phone call we had before this petition was written. Silent as the definition of the dynamic.
AMP Sir Ez’s
… … respect
6 months of silence…
After the 6months you will be released officially when I state you are.
There will be no contact with others in the lifestyle for petition because you are still owned until I say.
In this time you will complete all task of Pimpstyle Products and close all sites and accounts connected to Pimpstyle.
you will be in contact with Me if there are in questions and only Me.
you will not be included in any outings as family while in your probation period.
If you so choose to attend anything connected to the lifestyle it will be under My protection.
you will stay silent as mlf deserter.
your accounts will only reflect your personal lessons learned during this time, to be viewed and approved for public posting by Me.
This is by your request so only you have the ability to petition for adjustment after your 6 month probation.
During your probation there will be no use of your sites under the name mlf deserter without My approval other than games on FB.
Until I say differently you are still owned By Me.
you now have 6 months of silence
Make it work for you.
Without self-knowledge, we cannot go beyond the mind.
I like my friends like good tissue. Soft to the touch, but strong enough to deal with some real crap