Tossing stones….

I am a huge advocate of women loving themselves.  I talk about it all of the time and I’ve attempted to put it into action in my life.  It is a lesson that I am still learning.

Even I have moments within my life where I feel less than beautiful.  I chalk it up to the opinions of those who raised me and a society that has told me over and over and over again that I am a fat Black WOMAN so that must mean that I am of less value that the rest of the world.

Or at least the not fat Black WOMEN (translation White men) of the world.

I still have moments and today was one of them.

It was not anything special that triggered the thoughts, it was years and years and years of conditioning. As I sat in front of the camera to record tonight I looked at myself and saw every flaw that existed.  I almost did not upload the video at all, but if I can’t do something simple like this what I have in the pipeline will never get done.

I did finally upload and something caught my attention.  I went back though the video and did a repeat and caught it again.

There was a moment of me not having my guard up at all.  Even those who know me the best would miss the moment if I don’t tell them where it hits within the video.  I saw it though and I froze the camera.  In that one moment of being naked, I saw for as long as the screen remained frozen the woman that He fell for, the woman that is loved and the woman I am rather than who/what I think that I am.

I felt pretty.

I often feel sexy.  I sometimes feel smokin’ hot.  I often feel attractive but tonight I felt pretty.  There was a s0ftness in all of that sarcasm that broke through and in that one second of the video I realized that along with all of the other things that I feel I am….I am also pretty.

I wonder how many of the rest of my half of the human race takes the time to look themselves in the mirror and recognize that YES they ARE pretty?

About Aphrodite Brown

Aphrodite Brown is the owner and creator of Vizionz from the Bottom. Vizionz is a life and culture blog covering all aspects of life from pop culture, to politics, to parenting, with an extra heavy dose of alternative lifestyle & sex positive living.
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